#Read ¹ Left to Tell: Discovering God Amidst the Rwandan Holocaust Ë eBook or E-pub free

All those who harassed Eliece about this book, need to buck up and read it This is a story that everyone should know This is a story of great faith Even though it deals with what happened in Rwanda which we should all understand it is the story of a young woman who found God in a bathroom and how he rescues her again and again even through some very difficult situations My favorite quote from the book happens when there are killers outside the place she is hiding, calling her name and she is praying and has a vision of Jesus who says to her mountains are moved with faith, Immaculee, but if faith were easy, all the mountains would be gone. To give this book fewer than five stars would be a statement that it was somehow incomplete or flawed How could I find fault with something so heartfelt and genuine This is a book I will not read again This is a book I did not ENJOY reading, but it is a book that is worth reading It is a book that uplifts, even while it subdues.Would I recommend this book to my friends Only certain of them If you like to read books that entertain and put your brain on cruise control, this isn t the book for you If you like books that feed you and make you grateful for the gifts God has given you, this is a book you won t want to miss. #Read õ Left to Tell: Discovering God Amidst the Rwandan Holocaust â Immaculee Ilibagiza Grew Up In A Country She Loved, Surrounded By A Family She Cherished But In Her Idyllic World Was Ripped Apart As Rwanda Descended Into A Bloody Genocide Immaculee S Family Was Brutally Murdered During A Killing Spree That Lasted Three Months And Claimed The Lives Of Nearly A Million RwandansIncredibly, Immaculee Survived The Slaughter For Days, She And Seven Other Women Huddled Silently Together In The Cramped Bathroom Of A Local Pastor While Hundreds Of Machete Wielding Killers Hunted For Them It Was During Those Endless Hours Of Unspeakable Terror That Immaculee Discovered The Power Of Prayer, Eventually Shedding Her Fear Of Death And Forging A Profound And Lasting Relationship With God She Emerged From Her Bathroom Hideout Having Discovered The Meaning Of Truly Unconditional Love A Love So Strong She Was Able Seek Out And Forgive Her Family S KillersThe Triumphant Story Of This Remarkable Young Woman S Journey Through The Darkness Of Genocide Will Inspire Anyone Whose Life Has Been Touched By Fear, Suffering, And Loss I am human, and I think nothing of which is human is alien to meTerence, Roman 2nd century playwrightThe first time I read Left to Tell I was so overwhelmed by the horror of the Rwandan genocide I could barely take in all that is commendable in Immacule s writing This is a book which merits a second, even a third read No, I did not become hardened or closed off to the immensity of the atrocity, but I was able to step back and notice new and different things which deepened my appreciation of this already amazing autobiography For example, I was able to savor all the little things with which Immacule filled her story descriptions of her family and their compassion for one another their simple lives and deep faith their concern and care for their community her family s lack of prejudice despite their Tutsi minority status the beauty of the Rwandan countryside Immacule s intense desire for an education and determination to get one despite all the obstacles she faced as a Tutsi her many lovely and encouraging dreams of deceased family her developing relationship with God, and SO much And on my first read, I completely missed the unique custom in Rwanda, where every family member has a different last nameParents give each children a unique surname at birth one that reflects the feelings of the mother or father at the moment they first lay eyes on their new babyIn her native language, Ilibagiza means, shining and beautiful in body and soul Her father chose that name for her What a beautiful legacy And sadly, when the genocide was over, the victims and even their rescuers exhibited the same angry, vengeful desires toward those who had wronged them, as had been vented on them only months earlier Of course, this is only natural and yet this is exactly what keeps the cycle of violence going generation after generation after generation If you haven t read this book, do If you have, don t just read it once, or at least take your time with it It is about so much than death, violence, and hatred it is about the triumph of love and forgiveness I put that quote at the beginning of this review as a reminder to myself that numerically speaking, assuming I was a survivor odds were likely I would have been among those who caused the violence in Rwanda or wanted vengeance against those who did, than for me to have been one able to forgive as Immacule did A sobering thought 28 November 2017 Re reading It has been over eight years since I read this Cannot remember if I loaned or gave away my copy of this book, but it is gone So acquired a cheap second hand copy to read before next year when Immacul e comes to OKC to speak Will share this and her other book with my daughters and friend who are going to hear her 21 22 October 2009 I couldn t put this book down from the moment I started it Stayed up late at night reading it I paid for it the next day at work I was so tired, but it was worth it I finished it in two days because the author s story is so compelling And it s not just what she suffered or lost, because many people endured greater tragedies and were left without anyone What made Immacule s story stand out was that she focused on her spiritual development throughout the crisis We see how she was raised as a devout young girl by loving parents, but how her country s civil war brought out an inner strength and reservoir of faith she didn t know she had When she was confined with seven other women in a tiny bathroom, she used the time to pray, meditate and develop a rich interior life with God, which not only helped her endure her captivity but also laid a foundation for building a new life after the war ended The Rwandan genocide is a difficult subject to read about, but if you read no other book about it, I d recommend this one It s really a book about forgiveness and as such reminds me of a Vision Video I previewed recently which we purchased and plan to include as a part of our curriculum for the parent s portion of First Sacraments I expect it could be used by many other church faith groups as well It s wonderful It s called THE BIG QUESTION and it s the theme of Immacule s story, the purpose of her life We all must learn to forgive. It s sadly ironic that some people see proof that there is no God when they consider the evil manifest in the Rwandan holocaust This author lived through that holocaust, her family were victims, and she says she discovered God amidst it The style of this book is that of a religious faith journey Considering the unbelievably horrible things she experienced, I can t suggest a better approach to the subject The terrible things that happened are beyond belief I suppose it makes little sense to compare various historical holocausts in an effort to determine which was worst But the unique characteristic of the Rwandan holocaust that shocks me is how up close and personal many of the killings were The majority of the killing was done with macheties and in many cases the killers and victims knew each other, were neighbors, had grown up together and gone to school together The predominate religion in the country was Christianity see footnote , they spoke the same language and they had similar skin color We re talking about nearly a million people killed 20% of the population which leads to the probable conclusion that there may have been about the same number of people guilty of murder In the case of Immacul e Ilibagiza, the author of this book, the killers called out her name while searching the house where she was hiding They had reason to believe she was there but were unable to find her She recognized their voices One of the voices was of a man who she later learns killed her mother and brother and a man who s children she had been classmates with in grade school.Most people assume the holocaust was a Hutu versus Tutsi tribal conflict But many Hutu s were massacred in the holocaust as well 10% to 20% of those killed may have been Hutu It was actually a massacre initiated by a politically extreme group that advocated the ideology of Hutu Power that called for killing all Tutsis and moderate Hutus I found it of interest that there was a Hutu soldier among the RPG Tutsi armed fighters who rescued Immacul e and her group of Tutsi survivors It was the Hutu soldier who recognized Immacul e as a former classmate and saved her and her group from being charged as Hutu spies They were suspected of being Hutus because the first soldiers they encountered couldn t believe it possible that any real Tutsis could have survived the holocaust in that part of the country.One story from the book that I think illustrates the predicament of the Hutus is one family that rescued and hid a Tutsi woman who had been left for dead Even though the family was hiding a Tutsi in their house, their son went out each day during the 90 day killing spree to join with other armed Hutus to look for and kill any Tutsis they could find He had to participate in these murderous activities to prevent other Hutus from suspecting his family of harboring a Tutsi So it is very possible that some of the killers were reluctant participants in the killing Hutu families who were found to be hiding Tutsees were slaughtered along with the Tutsis they were hiding Immacul e lost her mother, father and two brothers to the holocaust One brother survived by being out of the country After the RPG had occupied the country and brought the killing to an end, Immacul e met and talked to the man who killed her mother and brother This is the man who called out her name while looking for her to kill her It is presumed that his interest in making sure all members of the family were killed was because he was interested in claiming their family s property She was able to look him in the eye and say, I forgive you When asked why she said, Forgiveness is all I have to offer Link to Immacul e s webpage of 2006, Catholics represented 56.5% of the population of Rwanda, Protestants 37.1% of whom 11.1% were Seventh Day Adventists and Muslims 4.6% 1.7% claimed no religious beliefs. Eye opening I didn t want to put it down Most of all, humbling I am ashamed at what horrendous things we, as human beings do to each other and also, what we ALLOW to happen It broke my heart to read of all those refugees hoping and praying for help from someone anyone, and no one stepped up to help They were left to fend for themselves I am ashamed at my own whining and complaining about nothing I have everything I am so very blessed I was inspired by Immaculee s ability to visualize what she wantedand she always got exactly what she visualized One of my favorite lines in the book was this I was living proof of the power of prayer and positive thinking, which really are almost the same thing God is the source of all positive energy, and prayer is the best way to tap in to His power I also loved the part where she asked the pastor who was hiding her for a Bible I had a similar experience recently with opening my own scriptures to a passage that I knew was meant especially for me Immaculee had just prayed for another woman the pastor had turned the woman away and she had also pled for a sign that God was watching over her and the women in the bathroom with her At that moment the pastor opened the door and gave her the requested Bible She opened it immediately and looked down to read Psalm 91 which reads This I declare, that He alone is my refuge, my place of safety He is my God, and I am trusting him For He rescues you from every trap and protects you from the fatal plague He will shield you with His wings They will shelter you His faithful promises are your armor Now you don t need to be afraid of the dark any , nor fear the dangers of the day nor dread the plagues of darkness, nor disasters in the morning Though a thousand fall at my side, though ten thousand are dying around me, the evil will not touch me She was spared and lived to tell her story It is worth reading. Shocking and inspiring Ms Ilibagiza tells the story of what happened to her during the Rwandan Holocaust The narrative s glut of horrific violence made me sick at heart, but Ilibagiza s faith and personal strength pulled me through.These people are just like you and me human, educated, desiring of a happy life, and it s stunning to see how quickly so much of this can go down the tubes when mob mentality, based on racial prejudice, sets in And lest my dear review reader thinks that such things don t happen in America, let s pause for a moment to consider what happened in New Orleans during Katrina Yes, Katrina, New Orleans, wasn t anything close to a Rwandan Holocaust, but I was shocked how many people, in the aftermath good religious, supposedly god fearing people said things to me like, Those people weren t smart enough to leave when they should have or Why should I send money, they re just a bunch of welfare cheats anyway , etc Barbara Bush spoke for many when she said of the Houston Astrodome Refugess They re loving it here It s exactly that brand of dismissive rationalization and downgrading of human suffering, based on class and racial prejudice, taking place over decades, that set the stage for the Hutu massacre of the Tutsis The Nazi Holocaust took off from the nearly exact same foundation of social and class prejudice against the Jews.Anyway, I think that this should be required reading Ms Ilibagiza is remarkably brave, and you need to hear her story. Faith can be defined as 1 confidence or trust in a person or thing faith in another s ability.2 belief that is not based on proof3 belief in God or in the doctrines or teachings of religion4 belief in anything, as a code of ethics, standards of merit, etc courtesy Dictionary.com How Immaculee Ilibagiza s faith was not shattered and completely destroyed after her ordeal in the Rwandan holocaust is astonishing Tribal tensions between the Hutus and the Tutsis escalate and the Hutus set about destroying any Tutsi from infants to elders, no one is spared, except for those that are hidden away Immaculee manages to survive by being secretly stashed in a tiny bathroom for 3 months with several other women Her family is murdered her grandparents, parents, brothers, aunts, uncles, and cousins including an 8 month old baby They are only a small portion of the million lives lost in the genocide.At one point, she hears screaming, then silence, then a baby crying The baby is left for dead, and Immaculee has to hear the baby cry all night until the crying is replaced by the sound of snarling dogs She prays for the child s soul and asks God, How can I forgive people who would do such a thing to an infant He responds to her, You are ALL my children and the baby is with me now This comforts her and she manages to go into forgive them they know not what they do mode.I go into If we are ALL your children, I think you need to mix in a time out And maybe throw in some birth control while you are at it mode.I read way too many books like this, Night, The Rape of Nanking, and I am repeatedly horrified by how these atrocities can occur maybe if I stop reading I can throw away my Paxil How someone is able to get to the point that they think it s okay, necessary even, to chop babies in half or throw hundreds of people into a fire because they are ethnically different is incomprehensible What the hell goes wrong in your head that makes murder okay I get self preservation I get self defense I do If someone comes into my home intending to do my family harm, then it s on I will put my life on the line to protect, no questions asked.So is what happens with genocide a preemptive thing Get them before they get us taint the gene pool whatever Or is it driven by pure hatred Is it the devil I hate to go there, but I really can t wrap my mind around all these unspeakable evils without thinking there s a huge evil force behind it all Which then gets me thinking, where the hell is goodness love and God while this is going on We don t want to go there, not now do we All I know, is that my faith, which most days is weak to non existent, would certainly be gone after enduring what Immaculee endured. What was that all about, Immacul e That was the man who murdered your family I brought him to you to questionto spit on if you wanted to But you forgave him How could you do that Why did you forgive him I answered him with the truth Forgiveness is all I have to offer pg 204 THAT line is the goal.but how the heck did this woman get to that point is why you NEED TO READ THIS BOOK Guilt and anger are forces destroying our cultures, our churches, and ourselves most of the time, if we don t know any better Even so, it is extremely hard to look at the ugly face of reality and actually embrace it.This woman s message of how she came to forgive unspeakable atrocities but she does write about them so that we can ponder the potential horror in society , and it needs to be heard and understood.Yes, the book tells of gross details and it isn t some theme you could sip a latte over BUT THIS MAY SAVE YOU FROM YOURSELF and isn t that worth the effort, to read a book that may not be at all lacking challenge, but one that will bring you to ask the question what angers me or what relationship has been forgotten because of the lack of forgiveness God grant us the strength to not die with unresolved issues, or hate in our heart, regardless of circumstance. I m not giving this five stars because I think it is a great piece of literature or that it in any ways matches up with the great books of the world The five stars are for how powerful and raw the book felt and how much it physically effected me To me this is the job of a really great survivor testimony They don t have to be perfectly written or come with accompanying historical footnotes, etc There were times as I was reading this book that I had a physical reaction to her story She tells it in very simple terms and pulls no punches I think some people might feel that she talks about her faith too much, and I have issues with that in my own life, but I would never deny that her faith is what got her through this horrific ordeal Her story is not necessarily unique in the realm of the Rwandan genocide, though as I know from personal experience in working with Holocaust survivors every story is different and unique Anyone with any interest in the power of human mind to overcome the absolute worst life can throw at you needs to read this book Actually everyone needs to read this book.