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!Download E-pub ⚜ Remastering Jerna ⚡ In A World Not Unlike Our Own, Jerna Setiq Has A Perfect Life, A Beloved Wife And Two Adored Children, With His Past Desires And Needs Firmly Put Behind Him But When He S Falsely Accused Of Child Abuse And Imprisoned, He S Cast Into Hell, With No Apparent Means Of Redemption, Or Regaining All That He S LostIn The Most Unlikely Of Places, In The Most Unpromising Of Circumstances, Fate Offers Jerna His Second Chance And A Path To Freedom With The Cruelly Fascinating Tolomi, A Dominant In Need Of Education And A Patient Submissive, Jerna Dares To Satisfy The Long Denied Passions Of His Dual Nature But Will He Risk Losing What Has Become So Dear To Him, All Over Again Remastering Jerna Is A Complex, Erotic Story Of Redemption, Love, And The Contract Of Trust In A Relationship Of Control And SubmissionWords , Approximate Remastering Jerna is a really dark tale of suffering and redemption In it, the author has created an alternate world not unlike our own, but with significant small differences She spends many pages drawing this world and the main characters in rich detail, making everything three dimensional and very real in a very readable style that gradually draws you in.The title character, Jerna, is teacher in a temple school with a wife and two daughters While he loves his wife and children, Jerna harbors desires he has suppressed and kept secret for many years He was once a submissive with an incredible capacity for pain, who served a master But then an innocent favor for his old master results in Jerna being falsely accused and convicted of a crime.In Jerna s world, prisoners are a source of cheap labor, and criminals are sentenced not to a term of years, but to a value of recompense Jerna s sentence will take years to pay off, under some of the most cruel circumstances He seriously considers suicide, but then his family would be saddled with his debt, and his honor won t allow that Even if he does manage to earn enough to end his sentence, it s doubtful he could ever return to his family due to the scandal of his conviction.Just when it all seems completely hopeless, Jerna gains a position that gives him some respite from the backbreaking work of the factories But this new job reawakens Jerna s old submissive desires, and soon he s drawn into a relationship that may pull him further away from his family.The author has a knack for putting her lead characters in situations where there s no obvious way they can escape, and be happy, without making impossible sacrifices She keeps you guessing, and reading I can easily be drawn into reading her work into the wee hours of the morning, trying and failing to figure out where the story is going.Aside from the author s masterful world building and character development, what I found really interesting in this novel was the frank discussion of the sado masochistic scene and the proper training of dominants Although it doesn t necessarily give us any insights into why someone needs to be a dominant or submissive, it does give some very useful information for those curious about this world, in a very entertaining and readable style. This book is amazing It made me feel so raw The thought of an innocent man imprisoned and tortured and offended and stripped of his basic rights and all his dignity is something that makes me nauseous The extreme shallowness of the accuser, the righteous attitude of the bigoted witness, the empty sympathy of a best friend who won t stand up for him made Jerna s fate almost impossible to bear.To be able to survive his imprisonment, Jerna sets a concrete goal to achieve and he reaches to his goddess as a well of strength and support Jerna abides to his moral principles, which are extremely high While the people around them seem to follow the words of the law, but not his spirit, Jerna seems the only one who tries to do right by others at the cost of his freedom I think however that Jerna in a sense feels that there s something he has to expiate When he married his wife Tyrne, a wonderful woman, he decided to hide and to suppress his needs as a submissive When he takes a job as a prostitute to pay his debt to the justice system, he begins a journey of self humiliation tempered by the absolute love for his family In his new job Jerna retains his cultivated manners, his dignity and his sense of self.The meeting with Tolomy, a would be Dominant, a man which has intimates needs he craves to satisfy but is void in his soul, takes Jerna to the breaking point This was the most difficult part to read, because the author was able to express Jerna s desperation with simple but effective words, portraying the effect Jerna s crisis has in the brothel by balancing every reaction, from the pity of the doctor, Zielda, to the sympathy of the brothel s manager Evai through the cold, but guilty contempt of Kare It s impossible not to feel for this man who is totally lost and miserable and broken.From this point on, Jerna begins to re build himself and, with him, Tolomy begins his own journey to give a shape to his desires Not everything is solved, but the fear and worry we felt before moves from Jerna s physical condition to Jerna s heart Both Jerna and Tolomy Ria bare their souls to the other man, with all the risks of misunderstanding and rejection that might come from this.The writing is almost formal, but very effective and with no purple prose Sometimes it s almost clinical, harsh, it s like a very bright light that makes everything appear starker, with no shadows, as if the characters were on an operating table, with no anesthesia, screaming for the pain they re enduring And we with them. From another review No one can read this book without becoming emotionally involved with the characters No Sorry, but no I ended up asking myself how anyone could be emotionally involved in the characters, but first things first I probably should state that I ve owned this book for months, and pushed it away, because I had this inkling I wouldn t at all like it BDSM books often are a problem for me, because I m in the lifestyle myself and I have strict opinions about consent But that wasn t mainly why I had my doubts Instead they were caused by the fact that I read a few Ann Somerville books a few years back, well before I was a member of GR, and found them very unsatisfactory In fact, I ended up really disliking the prose, messages and plots So Remastering Jerna kept being pushed back into the pile, even though it was recced to me a few times I had several discussions about consent and BDSM lately, and in consequence Kate kept telling me to read this for the treatment of consent I decided to get it over with, and as Kate also dislikes the authors typical prose, yet ended up pulling something from this book, you really have to thank her for making me read it Whoever looks at the rating and at the shelves can easily see I did not end up liking it So, on to the why Those who dislike spoilers shouldn t open this view spoiler ConsentWhat may astonish, I don t dislike this for the usual reasons I dislike a lot of BDSM themed books I disagree with the author s notion that she wrote different states of consent there From the beginning it was clear that Jerna is a prisoner and that this is a dystopian world in which he could be forced into whoring For me that voids any idea of consent From the moment he was sentenced Jerna lost any capacity for free consent, in fact he was written so much in fear of being returned to the prison from the brothel , that no alleged consent during his prison time was what I expect consent in any BDSM situation to be like Not with Kare, not with Piroti, not with Ria before or after training Jerna leaves no doubt that if he had a choice he d be doing none of this As a result there was nothing about consent I could take away from this story The whole brouhaha about freely given submission made little impression on me and felt like preaching with a sledgehammer A preaching which falls totally flat, because consent is absent in any of these cases I didn t mind that, it s a dystopian world, where people are treated as chattel It s no depiction of reality.BDSMWhat BDSM was there felt rather curious At times I was convinced the author was citing pages of Jay Wiseman or Gloria Braeme, interspersed with haphazard acts of BDSM taken off porn Some theories were correctly rendered, but the scenes appeared to be very curiously paced and put together, as if randomly spliced I wouldn t say they work with many, and definitely not with most bottoms, and some of the statements e.gBecause submitting and surrendering control is easy Taking control and responsibility is hard. are plain wrong and also insulting to bottoms Both activities are equally easy or hard I think it s rather unbelievable that a character like Ria, who is made out to be a generous, capable lover, would be such an inconsiderate top It doesn t match his profile Nor is it likely that someone intelligent enough to be so well educated, and holding such a raised position at such a young age, would be too stupid to notice he has a problem after the 3rd or 4th sub not reacting as he thinks they should Or so dumb as to not know whom to ask And the change from good to bad was way too fast Just as Jerna teaching him, after being described to suffer from a severe case of PTSD is rather unlikely Even he with all his saintliness wouldn t be able to do that just that easily.However, my main problem with the BDSM part of this book is that the author is teaching people readers about the right way of BDSM with a solid and rather heavy piece of wood This though there are way too many mistakes, errors and faulty descriptions in the BDSM parts of the book to clarify on what base of insight or knowledge she does this I m not saying everything this book preaches is faulty, that would be wrong It s just not everything correct and some of what isn t correct is very incorrect e.g that all subs or masochists relate to pain in the way described no, they don t all sense pain as negative painful, just as not all take it as welcome sensation, or as something nice , or the humongous import of aftercare yes, some people need aftercare, others don t that much, and for many it varies from scene to scene , or that there has to be Top drop some have it, others don t, some vary , or that people can t live without BDSM lots do all their life, others can t get it up without , to name a few things coming to my mind Yet the book keeps being extremely preachy about these things, going over everything not once, but a couple of times and in an absolutely not very covert manner Another reviewer said didactic That meets it It reads like a BDSM 101 manual written by someone not into BDSM However, this still isn t my main gripe ReligionAs the author is a self professed atheist I suppose she may have wanted to document what kind of extremely silly behaviour and dire consequences being too religious and faithful can cause Possibly Possibly she also used, as another reviewer pointed out, the story of the biblical figure Job as the underlying structure of her plot, retelling Job s story in a dystopian world The plots would match, and the first letters of their names.Whatever the motive, it bugged the hell out of me There was a sheer endless amount of references to the goddess and religion in general Jerna was indeed quite stupefyingly childlike in consequence of his faith, and such a walking martyr complex, that at times I was close to throwing something Goddess references already bothered me majorly while reading the book which shall not be named, but this here really won the coconut General PreachinessAnother reviewer stated One of the biggest strengths of this book are the sociological issues address prison reform, majority repression of minorities, intolerance, and populace ignorance in things being done on their behalf.I disagree Very much As if that constant preaching so far wasn t quite enough, this book tables just about every problem imaginable Okay, a few might be missing, like bullying or the ecosystem, but I m told that will be done in the sequels Not just that it tables these problems multiple times, again they are preached about quite aggressively and without the slightest finesse As a result I felt assaulted, as if some social justice warrior was ramming it right down my helpless gullet And in such amplification and spelt out in such detail, that I felt intellectually quite insulted I like intelligent books, even among genres, but I don t like being taught with a 2 by 4 And that s it, I m afraid, that was the straw which broke the camel s back I was and am simply done with all that preaching.The Rest of ItRemember the quote above No one can read this book I couldn t connect with any of these characters except Zeila and Petru I certainly disliked Jerna Saying I hated him would be too much, I just entirely disliked him Ria wasn t much better, and some of the other characters, like Tyrme or Juli were painted in such rose colours, I felt sickened.None of the stereotypes of the genre were omitted, whether the whore s with a heart of gold, the reluctant pimp, the utterly despicable prison director, the magnanimous johns and wives I could go on There was such a huge number of tropes, that I felt smothered instead of enticed or emotionally involved Most of these people were very two dimensional.I need to mention perhaps that the writing was unemotional, often contained huge chunks of mere telling, the bloated feel of the book, and the HEA ending, which came with little lambs, birds, bees and butterflies, and was utterly unconvincing and at least 4 chapters too long hide spoiler GrrrI want to rate this book a 5, but I have issues with Jerna s character The story is great complex than you d expect with layers played through various characters who transect Jerna s life Part of me wants to wrap naive people in cotton batting and hide them from the world and other part wants to smack them upside the head and say, Snap out of it And yes, the degree of patience lessens as the relative age of an individual increases Maybe it s because I have chronic mistrust, but to blithely accept things at face value when one s own well being is at stake is a big NO for me and this is where I disconnect from Jerna.His character is suppose to teach compassion and forgiveness and while I agree with these principles I don t subscribe to martyrdom There are so many wrongs committed in this book that don t approach what I consider appropriate levels of redemption for the transgression that Jerna comes off as a doormat and frankly a liability to his friends and family The only character that does make the journey of redemption is Ria It is beautiful and well done The sophistication of the resolution between not only Jerna and Ria is fine, but Jerna and Tyrme as well After all this, lest you think otherwise I will be reading the sequels One of the biggest strengths of this book are the sociological issues address prison reform, majority repression of minorities, intolerance, and populace ignorance in things being done on their behalf.